Autumn is all very well and good when you have days like these. Days where the sun is still warm on your skin and the air isn’t bitter. When you can still feel your fingers… More
My Darling Elsie,
I know this feeling all too well. I have done it twice over before with your brothers but it feels different this time with you. I know whats coming, I know you will tell me things I don’t want to hear and I know you will have many downs as well as all the ups. I feel your excitement, I really do. But I haven’t shown you my sadness. I haven’t told you how upset I am feeling and have felt for the past year now as this time has approached.
Your first day of school.
You have been counting down the sleeps for the best part of 6 weeks now, you eagerly have been trying on your uniform. You have been telling anyone who will listen that you are indeed a big girl now and that in September you will be going to school. And here we are, in September, and your first day has arrived. You went to bed last night squealing with such excitement it was hard not to squeal with you. You clutched your Owly and mussie so tightly that for a split second you were my little baby laying there, just a few months old. So innocent and fresh, not knowing what stood before you and just happy living in the little bubble all babies live in.
I tucked you into bed and kissed your forehead, you asked if you could put your uniform on as soon as you woke up in the morning and of course I said yes. We hung your dress up on your wardrobe door handle and lay out your knickers and socks. We had a trial run after dinner and we took lots of photos, you held onto your book bag so tightly, you were so proud. I am so proud of you.
I pulled your door closed and ran a bath for myself. I sobbed and sobbed laying in there, because I knew what stood before me. Its not that I’m worried about you, I know you will love it and I know that you will thrive in the school environment. All you want to do is learn, be sociable and please everyone. School will be perfect for you and I know I can’t give you what they can. You are so ready for all that school has to offer you.
My tears were for myself. Tears of loneliness, tears of heart break and tears of feeling lost. Some may say I’m selfish, but it is all I have ever known, and loved. Since I became an adult at 18 I also became a Mother to your eldest brother, Harvey. You have all moulded me into the person I am today and I don’t know any other life than being at home with my 3 children. For over 8 years I have been a stay at home Mum, it is what I have lived solely for. You, and your brothers. I am lost without you all at home and so my salted tear stained face is for me and only me. Not only am I losing you to school, I am losing my life as I know it. I am losing my little partner in crime, my buddy.
Oh, my baby girl. You are going to have the best years of your life at our school. I’ll be here for all the ups and downs, i’ll be here when your friendships break and i’ll guide you to piece them back together. I’ll comfort you when your sobbing over your homework, and i’ll hold you when all you need is a cuddle from your Mum.
I can’t wait to watch you learn and grow, but please don’t do it too fast. There is only so much my heart can take right now.
All my love, forever and always,
When we moved into our house it was really dark and gloomy, the woodwork all needed a lick of paint (the previous people smoked an awful lot – yellow tinged woodwork is not cool!) and the whole place just needed a complete freshen up. We managed to re decorate every single room bar the bathrooms in a week and were over the moon with how different it looked. We painted our bedroom purple because I had previously had a lot of purple accessories so I just kept it the same for ease. 5 years down the line and I really wasn’t feeling the purple anymore and after our recent trip to Greece and our love for the sea we decided to have a re vamp and paint it all white and accessorise with blues.
One of the main things we wanted to change was our bed. We still had my brothers old bed frame which definitely did not represent our style, but that of a 15 year olds room, and after trawling the internet there was nothing that really took our fancy. Not only did we not have much of a budget for this room, we wanted something unique and quirky. When the husband suggested making our bed from scratch I pulled many shocked/confused faces as he can barely fit a shelf straight…. (love you, Joe.) BUT with much research, plan after plan after plan and a lot of patience he ACTUALLY pulled it off!!
We bought the wood for the frame from B&Q and stained it with Jacobean Dark Oak, I didn’t want a warm orange stain, I wanted more of an ash stain but still with a hint of warmth and this was the perfect match. I also loved the idea of a pallet headboard and after a lot of searching on Pinterest I confirmed that what I had in my head was totally doable. To say I was demanding and bossy would be an understatement, but stubbornness pays off and it is EXACTLY what we wanted! The whole thing cost just under £40 and suffice to say that no one will have one the same, and knowing that we built it ourselves is pretty darn satisfying.
I am a sucker for plain white bedding so when I found this Albury Cotton Seersucker bedding from Laura Ashley online I knew I had to have it! Having such luxurious bedding really is a privilege and nothing beats climbing into crisp white linen sheets after a long day. It has a gorgeous trim along the pillowcases that just adds that extra bit of prettiness that just plain bedding doesn’t have. The underside of the bedding hasn’t got the ribbed effect that the top has which is perfect for fidget sleepers like me who get cross with any kind of embellishment or pattern touching their skin!
I also wanted to make some cushions to match our Greek theme and Laura Ashley had the perfect fabrics, I literally squealed with excitement when I found them! I used Leander Stripe Dark Seaspray curtain for an oblong cushion for the centre of the bed. I wanted something with more colour to make it really stand out against the white bedding and walls and I think it looks so cute! Not only is the quality of the fabric really beautiful, the stripes fit perfectly onto this size cushion which wasn’t planned out at all!
I then wanted a couple of square white cushions and add a couple of embellishments or buttons to them to jazz them up a bit. I chose Becall White Curtain Fabric as it had a really distinctive texture to it, which makes it stand out against the cotton bed linen. Buttons make a really dull cushion completely come alive and the wooden buttons from Dunelm Mill were super cheap and match the bed frame really well. I love the rustic look of them and its a great contrast against the white fabric. We added a 2 inch seam for the buttons to sit in which adds a much more professional finish.
Having 3 cushions on a bed, in my opinion, looks really pleasing to the eye. My husband was most confused when I told him they were display cushions and no, he couldn’t lay all over them like a pillow😉 ‘Is this a show room now?!’ was his reply, which made me quite smug for sure😉
So for the last cushion we wanted to add some blue into it and I came across a pack of blue buttons in Dunelm Mill (which has a really good haberdashery section FYI!) I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with them but knew I had to buy them. I also got some navy blue bias binding to make an edging around the cushion which I thought would look awesome against the white. I love navy and white together and a lot of the bedroom has different patterns scattered around so I thought it would tie in nicely. We decided on a random scatter of matte buttons in one corner of the cushion which I absolutely LOVE and so pleased with how it turned out! I am in love with this white fabric, it sewed beautifully and the overall finish is so crisp and professional – win win!
I am so excited to start accessorising our room some more. We have bedside tables to upcycle and maybe another little crafty project or two too. So stay tuned for bedroom make over part 2!
*Laura Ashley kindly gifted me the items mentioned in this post for this project we worked on together. However, all thoughts and opinions are my own*
Joe decided to take a few days off this week and my gosh did we all need it! I had so much work going on and also wanting to get Elsie’s bedroom all finished (blog post coming soon!) and a couple of blog deadlines all mounted up to one very stressed Mother. Suffice to say the first couple of days we spent lounging around, lego playing and getting things sorted in the house. I forget how messy the house is when the children are off school. I get used to having my own little routine and it staying relatively well kept during the week. That has all gone completely out of the window and I fee like we’re living in a complete pit.
So we escaped the house for the day on Saturday and decided to go adventuring. We didn’t have much of a plan and didn’t really know where we were heading but we loaded up the car with coats and snacks and set off. I had mentioned to Joe I fancied going near the coast and he wanted to do something slightly educational so we settled on Rochester.
There isn’t a huge amount to do in Rochester but the Cathedral and Castle are both beautiful and it was lovely to just walk around the high street popping in and out the little shops and having a general nosey! We did go into the cathedral but it isn’t really somewhere the kids were fussed about and they were more than happy to run around the grounds of the castle that do anything remotely educational😉
We were lucky enough to be on the high street when Old School Samba set up camp and played to a very happy crowd all in aid of Demelza charity. The atmosphere was awesome and nothing beats that feeling when live music is so loud you can feel it pumping in your chest. I think Elsie enjoyed it too!!
It was so lovely to spend the day together with no time restraints but of course it didn’t come without the usual stories to tell, like Elsie tipping an entire mug of hot chocolate over herself (white top and yellow jeans…) with no spare clothes to hand. Thank goodness it didn’t burn her and there are 600 charity shops on the high street so a quick rummage we picked up a pair of too-big-jeans for £2 and we were off on our way again!
Please note the brown stain all over her top in 95% of the pictures. I feel it just adds to the realism of our pictures…
We had the most delicious crepes in Crepe & Co. and dodged the rain, we found a park and rolled down banks. We laughed, some cried, and we made memories. Here’s to our next spontaneous adventure!